Slowing Down

I feel like life has been handing me speed bumps lately.  Maybe it's sign I need to slow down.  I have felt like life is on fast forward lately and I just can't seem to keep up.  The house is a wreck, the kids school isn't getting down as much as I'd like, and I am always running from here to there.

And then a couple weeks ago, both cars broke down on the same day.  What?  How does that even happen.  We went from speeding along in our fast paced life to a screeching halt.

And today, after a week of driving Mark to work every morning, we finally are set to get the car back and the van breaks down again.  ??

I'm still trying to process the odds of 3 breakdowns in a row. :(

And yet, I can't help but be a little relieved that my day tomorrow just got rearranged.  Why am I pushing so hard?  Why am I going at lightning speed?  Do I need to be?  Is this the right direction? Do I need to reevaluate?  Is that what life is telling me?  Is God telling me?

Oh and I got my period today - and it was a total and utter surprise.  This month has gone by so fast I feel like I just finished my period, although looking at the calendar - yup, it's right on time.  But it completely shocked me this afternoon.  I'm so crazy right now I forgot my period - sheesh.

Must...find...balance...oh yeah, that's my word right?

Secret Comeback

I'm blogging again - but this time no advertising it or posting things to facebook.  I am writing only for me this time.  I went through a few months of my posts last night and laughed, cried, and remembered all those things I wrote so long ago.  It was like taking that "walk down memory lane" and I am so glad I have this blog to help me remember all those things, because my memory is one that doesn't let me keep everything!

So I don't know if anyone is out there, I doubt it, so I will just pretend as if you are and as if you care.

I stopped blogging mostly after moving into this house.  I feel like I left apart of me back there on Monument Dr.  I miss that house a lot.  I miss the coziness of it.  I think, haha.  Or maybe I'm just being sentimental.  I do remember complaining about the size of my bedroom HA! And my kitchen.

But enough about coming back and where I was.

Right now I have this funny idea in my head about moving forward in a new way.  I have been on this quest for health, fitness, and weight loss for years - ever elusive.  So I just thought maybe I should try something I have NEVER tried before - just being good to my body.  Treating my body with kindness. You see I have two modes - either trashing my body with overindulgences in food, alcohol, and no physical activity OR depriving my body and bringing it to the limit with over exercising and limited food.  There really hasn't been much middle ground there.  I swing like a pendulum back and forth from one extreme to the other.

So it's 2016 and I don't have a word for the year.  I haven't done that in awhile, so let's pick one shall we (shhhhh I know it's April)?

My world for 2016 is Balance.  So there - let's have some balance this year and see what happens.